Pain that endures in me Pain that haunts me You will not break me You will make me grow Pain that drowns me Pain that follows me You will not confuse me You will renew me Pain that blinds me Pain that shatters my soul You will not force me You will turn into gold Pain, pain show me the way You will not destroy me, I will not decay
Fueling on hope
Wilting through time
Facing the world alone
Unwilling to survive
Breaking down from no cause
Loneliness becomes you
Disconnected from reality
Darkness fills the voids left from pain
Decaying dreams become haunting nightmares
Cherished memories turn into eternal torments
The undeniable feeling of loss is here to stay
The agony of the last heart beats
Enunciate the last minutes of survival
Time that is only define by eternity
The moment arrives welcoming emptiness and anger
Silence and tears blow a kiss on its departure
Fear has come to take away what was left
Leaving only traces and scars of panic
Time will pass, but in place no emotion will subsist.
En el momento que te fuiste te recorde como fuiste,
como me enseñaste a caminar, y como me guardaste de todo mal.
Las cosquillas que me hacias, los abrazos que timidamente te pedia,
las noches que subi a tu taller, a mirar el talento salir de tu ser
en una obra de arte que en tu mente se creaba y de tus manos fluia.
El olor de tu camisa, la voz de trueno que me intimidaba y tambien me abrigaba
los miles de libros que te vi leer
las platicas que me hicieron crecer
la sonrisa que me brindaste cuando mas sola me sentia,
todo queda en recuerdos que de niña guardaba.
Te pido disculpas por crecer tan rapido,
por no siempre estar a tu lado,
Fuistes mas que mi padrino, que mi guardian, que mi amigo…
fuiste aquel que siempre entendio mi silencio.
” Abuelo Raul, no hire al fondo pues me comen los tiburones… me quedare en los escalones observandote desde lejos estando a salvo con tu compañia… Te quiero”.
Two paths to take in front of me,
two roads that will make me or break me.
unknown is what to expect as I close my eyes and take the first step
clouded of pain and regret
I take my steps with calm and deliberateness.
On my way, a third way in
I can see the other path I have not chosen
a glass wall between me and what lies on the other side
a glass wall that pain has built for me.
As my journey progresses
I feel regret of what I have chosen
I cannot restrain myself from missing, wanting, yearning
Desperate to break the glass
but having no strength to pursue my temptation.
As I keep my pace
through the shadows I see a way out
My wall has been shattered by the path on the other side.
Broken glass everywhere
If I pass scars will be left behind.
The time I have dedicated to my present journey
is my only restrain from leaping blindly,
the scars that will be left behind will not be mine.
The other path is calling me
but fear covers the glass wall with steel.
I’m frightened to keep going on this journey
I’m afraid my exit will seal.
I fell without effort,
I fell without pain, without discomfort, without faith…
I fell into that charming trance
Carelessly, slowly, comfortably…
I fell into your arms
I fell into despair
Steady, slow, pure and simple enchanted despair
Where with no words but just a whisper you evoke me
And with no force but just a glance of your stare you provoke me
Where the present sorrows in my ear ” you cannot have him now “
And the future cannot be foreseen…
And my heart ties my will to try….
Oh sweet sorrowful despair that binds my heart from a smile
Give me warmth til the day I can feel the sun rise once more…