Pain that endures in me Pain that haunts me You will not break me You will make me grow Pain that drowns me Pain that follows me You will not confuse me You will renew me Pain that blinds me Pain that shatters my soul You will not force me You will turn into gold Pain, pain show me the way You will not destroy me, I will not decay

Fueling on hope

Wilting through time

Facing the world alone

Unwilling to survive

Breaking down from no cause

Loneliness becomes you

Disconnected from reality

Darkness fills the voids left from pain

Decaying dreams become haunting nightmares

Cherished memories turn into eternal torments

The undeniable feeling of loss is here to stay

The agony of the last heart beats

Enunciate the last minutes of survival

Time that is only define by eternity

The moment arrives welcoming emptiness and anger

Silence and tears blow a kiss on its departure

Fear has come to take away what was left

Leaving only traces and scars of panic

Time will pass, but in place no emotion will subsist.

En el momento que te fuiste te recorde como fuiste,

como me enseñaste a caminar, y como me guardaste de todo mal.

Las cosquillas que me hacias, los abrazos que timidamente te pedia,

las noches que subi a tu taller, a mirar el talento salir de tu ser

en una obra de arte que en tu mente se creaba y de tus manos fluia.

El olor de tu camisa, la voz de trueno que me intimidaba y tambien me abrigaba

los miles de libros que te vi leer

las platicas que me hicieron crecer

la sonrisa que me brindaste cuando mas sola me sentia,

todo queda en recuerdos que de niña guardaba.

Te pido disculpas por crecer tan rapido,

por no siempre estar a tu lado,

Fuistes mas que mi padrino, que mi guardian, que mi amigo…

fuiste aquel que siempre entendio mi silencio.

” Abuelo Raul, no hire al fondo pues me comen los tiburones… me quedare en los escalones observandote desde lejos estando a salvo con tu compañia… Te quiero”.

Two paths to take in front of me,

two roads that will make me or break me.

unknown is what to expect as I close my eyes and take the first step

clouded of pain and regret

I take my steps with calm and deliberateness.

On my way, a third way in

I can see the other path I have not chosen

a glass wall between me and what lies on the other side

a glass wall that pain has built for me.

As my journey progresses

I feel regret of what I have chosen

I cannot restrain myself from missing, wanting, yearning

Desperate to break the glass

but having no strength to pursue my temptation.

As I keep my pace

through the shadows I see a way out

My wall has been shattered by the path on the other side.

Broken glass everywhere

If I pass scars will be left behind.

The time I have dedicated to my present journey

is my only restrain from leaping blindly,

the scars that will be left behind will not be mine.

The other path is calling me

but fear covers the glass wall with steel.

I’m frightened to keep going on this journey

I’m afraid my exit will seal.

I fell without effort,
I fell without pain, without discomfort, without faith…
I fell into that charming trance
Carelessly, slowly, comfortably…
I fell into your arms
I fell into despair
Steady, slow, pure and simple enchanted despair
Where with no words but just a whisper you evoke me
And with no force but just a glance of your stare you provoke me
Where the present sorrows in my ear ” you cannot have him now “
And the future cannot be foreseen…
And my heart ties my will to try….
Oh sweet sorrowful despair that binds my heart from a smile
Give me warmth til the day I can feel the sun rise once more…